From self-hate to self-love

I have spent so much of my own time and energy hating myself.

So much so, that I started to believe that my life wasn't worth living, that I was doomed to failure, rejection and unhappiness forever.

None of these things turned out to be true.

I have undergone so many cycles of transformation, have hustled through the grind of self-improvement, and pushed myself so far outside of my comfort zone in search of a version of myself that I didn't loathe.

In my self-rejection, I was devoted to my own expansion.

It did not occur to me that maybe I don't have to lose that weight, find that soul mate, get that promotion, or buy that house to feel good about myself.

It never occurred to me that maybe I am worthy exactly as I am, right here and now.

That maybe I am always worthy of love. Past, present and future.

Maybe the truth is... I am made of worthiness.

Let me say that again-

I am made of worthiness.

How does it feel to say that out loud? My ego is already locked and loaded to argue why that can't be true.

But hear me out, ego.

Maybe my worthiness comes from remembering that I am an extension of Source.

Maybe I am a leaf on the tree of this ever-expanding, always-unfolding, all-encompassing Universe.

Maybe I have come down into this physical human body on behalf of the Universe to experience exactly what it is to be "me".

Maybe there will never be another who has lived through what I've lived through, who has seen what I've seen, who has experienced what I've experienced, felt what I've felt, chosen as I have, or perceived the way I do. Maybe that gift belongs only to me.

Maybe I offer something miraculous and uniquely beautiful to the stream of life.

And maybe you do too.

If I choose, I can ask Source to release me from that list of conditions that I've convinced myself are required for me to be worthy of love. To feel good about myself. Maybe I can swap "all the reasons why I am unlovable" for "all the reasons why my tribe loves me for who I am".

If I am open and willing, I can ask Source to help me remember.

I can ask right here and now.

This is the invitation offered to you now, and every day for the rest of your time here on Earth.

Your worthiness has been waiting for you.

It will never leave you.

It will always be there, waiting patiently for you.

Are you ready to invite it in?